Sunday, January 3, 2010

Home

Simply Red sings about it best.  "Home is a place where I yearn to belong."



Coming home from Memphis wasn't exactly an easy ordeal.  In fact, it was like pulling teeth just to leave.  I because entranced, almost hypnotized by the possibilities about starting life all over again.  New home, new friends, new neighborhood, new things to explore, working at St. Judes with children (my dream career actually)...  so it was natural for me to be enthralled and enticed by what it offers.  It certainly was full of culture and I loved the blues music and the amazing dry ribs.
Then I sit and actually think abut what a move like this would mean in all areas of my life.  Being a Taurus,. I appreciate stability.  I don't like change much.  However, I a,m up for adventure.  It is really tempting to -ut the past behind and start anew.  Reinvent our live and be closer as a family.  Less distractions for Gary and I and more time to spend with Kami.  I think the adjustment would be hardest for her because she is accustomed to this country life and has such stability and strong friendships.
Living in the South of the United States isn't exactly wonderland. Their history is quite rough where race relations are concerned. That bothers me. Today when I was grocery shopping, I was immediately struck by how much more expensive our food costs here. The same box of Clementines for $4.99 in Memphis is $9.99 here. The gas is 50 cents higher. The cost of housing, double. I wonder how well we would do there?  It is the city so it is a change. But it might be exciting for a while.
So again - what about Kami?  Would she like it there?  I don't know. She would make new friends I suppose and changing schools before middle school would be a good transition point.  We would just have to put her into private school to ensure that she keeps up with her good work.  And I have no doubt it is expensive there too.
Well - I guess I am just dreaming and that's OK.  To want to start over after a year like the past one is only natural.  Only time will tell what happens for us but whatever it is, it will be exciting and bring promise of a new tomorrow.  I will close my eyes and imagine it...