Swine Flew?

OK - I had an excellent night's rest. Took a blessed Klonopin to help me relax because my sweet child is off on a Hagerman Back Country Adventure. I woke up happily at 10:30, thanks be to God and the Klonopin Angel, but the moment I got up I ached and hurt everywhere. Quickly, I degenerated. It was downhill all the way from that point until now.

I am not sure it is Swine Flu.

I am not hungry. This may be a great weight loss diet. My head, back, neck, legs, knees, feet, stomach - well just plain all of my beautiful body - is down and out.

In a way, if it is swine... I will be immune. If not, well shoot. I'll get to pay for a blessed shot.

On top of the flu shot itself.

Health is a gift. I have always said this.

My year has been hellacious. I just want to clean up the mess my life has become.

So to feel like this is incredibly tiring. It plays with my mind. Just the thought of something else happening that is chaotic brings tears to my eyes.

They say God never gives you a challenge he feels you can't handle. Well - I think I am there finally. I feel like a wild horse that has a broken spirit. I simply need a shift. The positive attitude, glass half full mentality is shifting. It makes me really sad because I thought by now my personality and charisma would have turned this all around.

So if anyone is listening out there in blog-land and can offer me some encouragement, I sure would appreciate some compassionate advice. To refill my heart would really be such a gift to my worn out old soul.

Next blog will be a happy one. I absolutely promise.

Recharging the Batteries

Oh I love to laugh! Being a class clown and continuing to use humor to make my own life easier, I have a great appreciation for the hilarious. It has been absolutely forever since I have laughed so hard and so constantly; boy does it feel good... :)

Last night, my dear friend Pat took me to see Robin Williams perform in Hailey. Mr. Williams scheduled three last minute performances at our local Liberty Theatre, owned by Bruce Willis and Demi Moore, and home to Company of Fools. I can only assume he is preparing to resume his tour in September after open heart surgery in March. Not only does he look fabulous but there is no lack of energy. He has recovered so well it is encouraging.

We had front row center seats and it felt as though he was speaking right to us. My throat is actually sore today! I have watched his routines and have some comedy DVD's of his, but never have I experienced a live performance by a stand up comedian. He went on for over 1 1/2 hours without a break. And every minute was funny. Every minute was relative to our current events. To see humor in everything, even the worst of the worst, is such a gift.

With everything going on in my life at this moment, I wanted to express gratitude for the gift of his humor. It lifted my spirits and will continue to make me smile for a long time as I remember each joke and it's clever telling.

Tell that funny person in your life that you love how he or she makes you feel. I wish I could bottle Robin's humor and pass it around. It truly is the best medicine ever.