Swine Flew?

OK - I had an excellent night's rest. Took a blessed Klonopin to help me relax because my sweet child is off on a Hagerman Back Country Adventure. I woke up happily at 10:30, thanks be to God and the Klonopin Angel, but the moment I got up I ached and hurt everywhere. Quickly, I degenerated. It was downhill all the way from that point until now.

I am not sure it is Swine Flu.

I am not hungry. This may be a great weight loss diet. My head, back, neck, legs, knees, feet, stomach - well just plain all of my beautiful body - is down and out.

In a way, if it is swine... I will be immune. If not, well shoot. I'll get to pay for a blessed shot.

On top of the flu shot itself.

Health is a gift. I have always said this.

My year has been hellacious. I just want to clean up the mess my life has become.

So to feel like this is incredibly tiring. It plays with my mind. Just the thought of something else happening that is chaotic brings tears to my eyes.

They say God never gives you a challenge he feels you can't handle. Well - I think I am there finally. I feel like a wild horse that has a broken spirit. I simply need a shift. The positive attitude, glass half full mentality is shifting. It makes me really sad because I thought by now my personality and charisma would have turned this all around.

So if anyone is listening out there in blog-land and can offer me some encouragement, I sure would appreciate some compassionate advice. To refill my heart would really be such a gift to my worn out old soul.

Next blog will be a happy one. I absolutely promise.